Chapter 10: LOVE'S GREATEST TRIAL, PART 2

Divine Dreams – Spiritual Warfare

During the process of Jack’s external radiation treatments, I sought the Lord for guidance.  I would pray every day on the way to work and driving home for Jack.  I prayed: “Lord, I ask you to inhibit every cancer’s cell’s ability to reproduce itself; I come against your ability to multiply, in the name of Jesus; I plead the blood over Jack and those cancer cells – hinder them from reproducing, in Jesus Name.”   At the end of these external radiation treatments, we waited.  I received instruction through dreams that the Lord gave me to direct my steps, I believe because I was often times so overwhelmed with trying to help Jack understand, when in truth, I did not understand myself yet.   

First Dream:  I dreamed that I was speaking at a church and was standing on the platform introducing myself – there were rows of chairs, with people (older than myself at time of this dream) in the classroom, with a center isle leading to the podium.  As I was speaking I saw people at the back-center row begin to just fall on their faces as if in postulation before the Lord’s presence!  I watched as this “Presence” moved down the isle, everyone falling on their faces before Him in worship – I could not see Him, only see the effects of His presence on each individual, when suddenly a hand or force, invisible, lifted me up and I started gradually rising up towards the ceiling.  I was shaking and trembling literally from His Holy Presence – I thought I was going to die from His Holiness but His mercy, grace and steadfast love lifted me up and covered me!  I got to the ceiling and Jack shook me and said, “Wake up Sharron, your having a night mare!”  The next morning the Lord Spoke to me and said:  “I just want you to remember, it is Me in you working and outside of Me, you can do nothing!”  I always wondered what the Lord would have shown me if Jack had not awakened me. 

• My Interpretation:  I felt this dream was to make sure I gave the Lord all the credit, along with the body of Christ, for the things that were going to transpire and not get caught up in spiritual pride.  I have had lots of people over the years make comments when they were told some of my stories, but I have always tried to give the credit to who credit was due. 

Second Dream:   I had another dream shortly after that one…Jack and me were walking down a road in the middle of a wheat field, during the winter – when everything green is gone/dead.  Jack seemed to be focused on all the dead, bare trees, grass, and wheat, pointing out all the dead stuff everywhere – no life.  I began looking for something green, thinking: I know there is life someplace, so I began searching for anything green, or at least one blade of grass – life, when I came upon a huge rock in the far corner of this field of wheat.  At the base of this rock it appeared as if something had protected a few blades of new green grass – like an outdoor mat had been moved.  I yelled at Jack to come and see: LIFE!  He came over and joined me, when I immediately noticed a small opening inside the rock – we squeezed through the opening and on the other side was a huge river that looked like an ocean, crystal clear like a mountain stream, with round, smooth stones all over the bottom.  Standing out in the water was a man dressed in rubber fishing coverall’s.   He reached into the water and grabbed a giant “sea bass” that covered up half of his body and tossed it to the pier where we were both standing.  He then reached in again and picked up another “sea bass” and said: “There will be many big catches for the Kingdom of God through this experience”.  I woke up and started talking about life – fixing my attention on life and not death, a day at a time:  (I also discovered – not being a fisherman, there really is such a thing as a sea bass!) 

• My Interpretation:  I felt this dream was to take my focus off the death sentence Jack had been given, with no hope – everyone, everywhere around us spoke of hopelessness, despair and Jack’s death.  I was to focus upon ‘life” through Jesus Christ and see what the Lord would do, a day at a time.  The rock represented, to me, Jesus Christ as the only way to our Heavenly Father.  The fish would represent people coming into the kingdom through our experience together (two fish).

Third Dream:  I had another dream after Jack was diagnosed with terminal brain cancer and given 3 years to live at the most – I dreamed that I was standing in a house looking out the window and it was in a populated area – buildings closely packed together, like the center of a city, when I saw a tornado drop down and begin coming down the street with great fury!  I got scared and started shaking violently!  The Lord spoke to me and said:  “Rebuke it in My Name!”   I walked outside as it was approaching, trembling at its speed and destructive fury; I yelled with all my might: “I command you to stop and go back up into the clouds where you belong – NOW, in the name of Jesus!”  I watched it go into reverse and within seconds the sky was blue and sunny with no evidence of its existence!

• My Interpretation:  I felt through this dream the Lord was instructing me to come against the cancer cell’s ability to reproduce – to bind its reproductive ability.  Also the Lord instructed me to pray: “for the circuitry of Jack’s brain, that God would heal his brain’s damaged communication abilities.”  The tornado, to me was the cancer’s stage 4 level and its fast destructive power.

Shortly after this dream, I was praying about Jack and his death sentence and whether or not it was spiritual or physical that I was dealing with – how to pray.  I decided to do a 48 hour water fast and seek the Lord’s guidance on how do deal with this “thing”. During the fast I had a very vivid dream: 

Fourth Dream:  I dreamed that I was walking around the Capital building – park area in Washington DC, when I noticed a white limousine driving very slowly down the road.  Seated in the backseat was a man dressed in white formal attire, that reminded me of a Pope (like he wears addressing the crowds in St. Peter’s Square, Vatican City) with the headdress on also, but the person had the face of “death” upon him!  I watched this face of death fix its gaze upon me and as the limousine was driving very slowly down the road, this entity began turning in his seat, never taking his eyes off of me – watching me intently while driving down the road!  Next, I was standing in a court room, where the session had just finished and the verdict rendered – I walked up to this little bald headed judge and very nervously began trying to explain to him that I believed in the power of healing through Jesus Name and that I would like to lay my hands upon him and pray (also I noticed that there were two attorney’s standing on the side, packing up their papers, when they stopped and began watching and staring intently at me instead) when suddenly the judge grabbed my hands before I even finished speaking and placed them on top of his head!  At the moment I spoke Jesus Name – a violent “giant” of a “hulk type person” rammed against the court house doors!  The whole building shook as he took all of his force and rammed the court house double doors, which were strongly locked with a bar.  I could see him outside and said: “He is trying to get to me, but he cannot, as I am covered in the Blood of Jesus!  I woke up and it was Sunday morning and I went to church.  Our pastor, Steve Brown preached on the things we wrestle against are not carnal, but mighty, powerful, to the pulling down of strongholds!  It was as if Pastor Steve knew my dream.  I knew the names of what I was dealing with: death and destruction.  I went home and prayed all through out my house, over each window and doorpost of my house, anointed it with olive oil and grape juice representing the blood of Jesus, and strongly, out loud, rebuked: death and destruction – my house had communion!

• My Interpretation:  I felt the Pope figure was the spirit of death upon Jack and the angry giant hulk creature was destruction along with Jack’s own anger at having to deal with all this.  I felt the two attorneys’s represented people that the Lord had tuned in to reveal what He was going to do through this ordeal.  The judge I felt was Jack – the head of our house, needing prayer – hoping the death sentence just rendered could be changed: hope, strength, and God’s healing.

Now, this is where it gets strange – but as God is my witness, it happened!  The next day – it was February, and the temperature outside was in the teens, and there were “flies” everywhere downstairs!  I am talking about hundreds of flies that seemed half dead, not moving much.  Jack said: “where did all these flies come from in the middle of winter?”  He could swat one time with the fly swatter and kill 5-10 at a time!  What is really strange – there was not one fly upstairs (Our room was downstairs where Jack stayed!  Where could that many flies come from in the middle of winter?  I figured it was a result or outward manifestation given to me by the Lord, showing me it worked – death and destruction had been rebuked!  Jack lived 15 years when no one (according to Dr. Olsen at Emory) had ever lived past five years with a grade 4 Glioma Astrocytoma brain tumor!   Jack made medical history at Emory and actually made Dr. Olson look good.  We saw him on TV one day discussing advancements with these types of cancers – a breakthrough.  Jack said:  “I may have been the cause of your popularity Dr. Olson, I made you look good.”  He answered, “Yes you did Jack, as I now have more new cases then our staff can handle.” 

One day while in Dr. Olson’s office for Jack’s checkup, after his MRI had been studied for an update of his condition, the doctor showed us his MRI and explained the area where the cancerous lesion was – it appeared as if someone had taken a white high-lighter and outlined the tumor’s dwelling place.  White represented live tumor, according to Dr. Olson, but he felt good at what he was seeing and nothing was going on.  I asked:  “Dr. Olson, what do you think about Jack’s progress and tumor in comparison to all the other patients with the same grade cancer as his?  Dr. Olson answered: “Well, Jack is not an ordinary patient – he is unique.  Jack does have live grade 4 cancer cells in the lesion and they multiply very rapidly at this stage, but it is really strange – it is as if the cancer cells’ ability to reproduce themselves has been inhibited – they are there, but not multiplying.” 

My spirit leaped with joy! My specific prayers regarding inhibiting every cancer cell’s ability to reproduce themselves (I also use to say: “Thus far shall you go and no more!”) in the name of Jesus Christ worked!  My prayer words came out of Dr. Olson’s mouth –the way I had prayed them!  I shared this with Dr. Olson after he finished speaking.     

Our story does not end here; I have more to share regarding the Lord’s Invisible Hands upholding us through it all.  My next chapter will be about my husband’s failed attempts to take his life – twice and how the Lord intervened for me and our three girls’ sakes.  Prayer does change things, if you only believe.